Yes...

Mine has come, just in time for a new school year. It came when I was watching High School Confidential; watching girls my age go through their high school years and learning about themselves while being documented. As I was watching I thought to myself

I don't feel so bad,
When I was in the 9th grade I would've never thought I'd be where I am now and in the shit that i've basically dived myself into today... I'm not alone

I felt like some one of higher power took me by my collar and said no... Your not gonna keep doing this shit any longer. Who ever it was I thank from the bottom of my heart. It could be some one showing me "tough love" who I despised for so long or it could be the tears of some one who gave up everything they had even their childhood just so I can live the life I live now. I'm just glad it happened. I wish I could be as naiive as I was in the 3rd grade not knowing a damn thing not even knowing what war really meant, everything was so simple then. All you did was color and you got an A in school and got everything you asked for. But then again let's be realistic good things don't last forever. Everything has been laid out on my table and I was forced to look at it and deal. As for all of my mistakes... there is nothing I can do about them but live with them and know not to relive them. God knew I couldn't go another day doing the same ole shit I was doing before my mind, body and soul can't take another hit... They really can't.